The Next Step
Looking for an apartment to move into with my man & I
Gotta say I’m loving my options too
Even though things are going to be tough for awhile, money wise,
it will be exciting taking the next step
Ah, there ARE positives to growing up :)
It’s a little disheartening though because after Nocturnal Wonderland
I’m going to have to buckle down and quit raving as much temporarily
so I can save some money until I’m stable
Blah, there’s positives and negatives in everything BUT
I think I’m ready for the sacrifice
b r i n g . i t . o n .
Looks like I’m going to go
It’s stressful how much my group and plans changed to get to this point.
Whatever though, got it all figured out and ready to dance the night away.
Hopefully I see some of you lovelies there 😘😘
So one of my really close friends told me a couple months ago that she was pregnant but not to say anything because she had not told the baby daddy yet. Well, now he knows and now she knows what the sex of the baby is! She’s having a little baby boy and I couldn’t be more excited for her. :) she’s going to have one cute kid no doubt about it ❤❤
What is wrong with me?
Having such a rough day.
Can’t seem to bring my spirits up.
I hate being alone.
I hate not getting very much social interaction in a day.
But I hate hitting up the people I enjoy spending my time with all the time because I know normal people like their “me” time.
My “me” time is seriously when I’m sleeping and that’s enough for me.
Sometimes it’s so hard being different from all the rest.
Trying my best not to get depressed.
Guys I’m having some serious rave withdrawals. It’s all I can think about and I feel like I’m going to burst inside if I can’t dance the night away with nothing but love and good vibes surrounding me. It’s only been a month…
Why am I so confused?
I’m not supposed to feel like this…
It’s not supposed to be this hard..
I’m only 19, why can’t I just be happy?
I’m so fucking sick guise.
Like sick I can hardly get out of bed sick.
Heal me please.
I need to be better by next weekend.
Or even by tomorrow.
Fuck being sick.
I love you bed, but I don’t want to be with you….not like this.
I think it really shows someone’s character when they talk shit about other people’s passions.So it’s not for you, that doesn’t make it bad.
It makes me sad seeing people hate just cuz someone else doesn’t have the same interests as them. Being different & yourself is BEAUTIFUL.💕
But really tho, where is the love?
Wonderful Night ♡
Had such a great night last night! Went out with one of my best friends and saw a bunch of people I haven’t in a long time and made some wonderful new ones. Lots of bp, dancing and good conversations.
I miss times like these. I don’t know why it’s so far and few between. I guess everyone is just busy now being grown up. Take me back to the nights where I felt alive and had no care in the world.
This weekend is a nice escape from my reality. Great party last night, LED Anniversary tonight & it’s a mystery for monday but I’m feeling like it’s going to be good. Anyways, love you plur babiess! Hit me up on here tonight before LED and let’s meet up. (:
Such a busy month ahead…
There are so many big things happening that are going to effect my life majorly for the next year or so…
I’m so stressed out and worried I’m getting chest pains. Right under my breast on my left side where my heart is. It feels like a muscle cramp almost but it’s like a really sharp pain.
I’m doing my best not to slip back into depression. I’m so worried though, I hate not being able to control the outcome in situations that are going to effect my life.
& I know I could completely cut out this situation from my life, but that’s not an option. I refuse to let go of someone that makes me so happy and loves me so much and never stops trying.
So yeah, right now is hard. But I’m damn sure that we’re going to make it through it and are going to live a long, loving, wonderful, successful life. Just wait and see.
But for now, holding my breath and hoping for the best. xx
Updated my profile.
Let me know what you think. ♡
I’ll add my music player later.
Love youuu plur babies (◕‿◕✿)
Free me from this cage you all call reality.
Going through a bunch of old pictures from 8th grade-junior year and seeing all the memories made and people I used to be friends with is putting a smile on my face. I’ve lived a good life so far.
Flashback to when I had major self image issues and now looking back I was in such great shape. Just insecure from all the negative words people threw my way.
So now I’m making a conscious effort to genuinely compliment people I talk to & let them know they’re beautiful.
I’m so happy I found the rave scene and the plur vibes. Nothing has made me feel as comfortable in my own skin as that & I want to spread the same feeling. ❤
So my phone got stolen on Friday by a guy friend who got mad at me because I punched him in the face for throwing something at me and hitting me in the face. Then later he was getting territorial over me because before I was with my fiancé we used to be best friends and hook up all the time.
I got a new phone so I’m okay now I guess, just still really pissed off that he would do that to me. We were both drunk as fuck on Friday though because we were at a party & he said “Amber you know I love you. I’ve loved you for a long time.” Then later told me “I want you but I can’t have you.” Then later said “I’m always going to be here for you.”
I don’t know how to take all of this. I’m so confused. He did apologize though for hitting me and taking my phone. I just don’t even know how to deal with all of this.
He’s the player kind of guy which is why I never waited for him but we’re still really close and we still hang out all the time. I don’t even know I’m so lost in this whole situation.
Why is it at night I always feel more motivated to work out? Like I seriously feel like I could run miles at night. I totally would too if there weren’t so many creepers out at night.
I’m getting back into yoga and dance again. It whips my body into shape and I have a passion for it.
Can’t stop thinking about all the shows coming up. I wish I could afford them all but it’s so difficult! Trying to save up for my tattoos, events, moving out, school and other fun things is so hard with all the bills I have to pay also. I wonder how people my age do it. Please give me your tips!
Any of you rave babies want to do a PLUR package with me? Message my inbox & I’m down :)
Love youuu ☺❤😘💋